Tuesday, December 13, 2005
Snap, Crackle, Pop
I don't know what's wrong with me ... it's almost Christmas and normally I feel very calm, happy and introspective. Mixed into that are the ever present little periods of sadness and wistfullness, as thoughts of loved ones who are no longer here come to me at odd moments. The memories are bittersweet, but inevitably turn to happier memories.
This Christmas, I just don't know what's wrong ... my Christmas spirit is gone ... hell who am I fooling, it just never came this year! It's seems with all that's been going on, that the protective, vengeful, possibly physical side of me is being channeled this year. WATCH OUT WORLD I have access to a whip and I ain't afraid to crack it!
I think maybe I need some calm, me time .... Hmmm, maybe some kick ass time with a boxing body bag and THEN the meditating, relaxing experience ... maybe it'll work this time?!?